This is the first time in 3 months that i am returning to writing my blog.. and sometimes i feel like there's so many things thoughts that i wanna pen down but when i come down to doing it nothing seems to be able to flow out. Maybe i should write more often so that all these feelings don't get clogged in me and somehow get stuck eventually. The holidays aren't as exciting or fun as i thought them to be.. torn between having to stay at home or go out since there's really nothing to do, or who to spend my time with. maybe i should just be a loner and stay at home since everyone seems to be unhappy with the things i do now. mum, friends etc. i don't want to start becoming rebellious and angry coz i feel there's a more mature way to handle this. Help me Lord.
Breaking Through - 8:39 AM.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
okie hello peeps.. by order of MICHELLE LAM.. i shall attempt to post my wishlist over here.. won't be very specific so i apologize coz i am not sure what i want also. erm.. lets see..1) a bag/clutch? (any kind's fine)2) havaianas sandals.. (the one with the back strap)3) heels? 4) accesories =Dhahaha i think this is a failed attempt.. sorry i tried. Well come to think of it.. anything's fine.. just come out for dinner with me and i will be happy! =D i would really love to spend my birthday with my close friends like u =D hee
Breaking Through - 12:01 AM.
Got home from supper pretty late last night.. or should i say early this morning =X But served for 2 services at Children's Church today and it was awesome! =D Though i was extremely tired having to wake up so early, what Pastor Eileen shared with us at 8.30am in the morning really 'woke me up'. She shared with us on the power of confession and told us to practice confessing 3 things that we really want to see in our life and to have faith in seeing it come to pass. I love the Cch family.. everytime i serve, i feel like i'm constantly soaked in an environment where everyone is so fun-loving but yet still know when its the right time to get serious as well. I will be starting to help out at the smaller Cch services from next week onwards and i'm all excited and geared up for it!! Veroy was also telling us the plans for Easter service and that our target would be for 7000 children to come =D I believe reaching out to the little ones is definitely just as important as anyone else.. indeed its never too young to get saved and start living a purpose-filled life for Christ! =D
Breaking Through - 7:07 PM.
Virology test was a killer today! Or should i say more of a shocker lol. Everyone expected the test to at least have an mcq section but there was none! 50 marks of open-ended questions =S I guess we shouldn't have expected much knowing that the lecturer for this mod is quite a mean and sarcastic guy.. and being the last to arrive for the test in the entire cohort wasn't a good start for me either. haha. While walking down the steps in embarrassment to get the test paper from him, i was praying so hard under my breathe that he would just continue on with his instructions and not decide to make any sarcastic remarks about my late coming. Thank God he chose to be nice for once =D Anyway its over and now i gotta focus on my CS mod test on thursday! 7 chapters of film art to mug through! Woohoo! come on! bring it on! =DLabels: testsssss
Breaking Through - 12:57 AM.
On the way out from Hall 1 at expo today, we saw 3 lamborghinis parked side by side.. grey, black and white. I don't know if its me dreaming too much about ever owning a sportscar or what, i actually dreamt that i was riding in a convertable style audi R8, with my hair flying in the wind and all. LOL. Speaking of dreams, i have been having lots of them recently.. weird ones in fact. There was one where i was being hunted down by the police for some crime i commited, one in which i took up cooking lessons and failed miserably during the cooking assessment ( i got graded 3/10 by the chef) and now this. My mind seems to be so active these nights.. hmmm. Labels: sleepless nights
Breaking Through - 7:05 PM.
Went for dinner today with Wayne at his ah ma's house =D Was pretty jittery about meeting his entire family at first but when i met his ah ma i kinda felt my fears dissipate altogether coz she's such a nice old lady =) Being amongst his family members really did make me feel at ease even though i didn't really talk much to anyone except wayne, his mum and dom. Maybe its because i could sense the closeness in the family. Seeing his cousins and siblings being able to talk to their uncles and aunties freely without any hint of awkwardness or formalities really dropped a thought in my mind.. i don't recall being able to talk like that to any of the elders in my family before without feeling awkward or disrespectful. I guess its different in every family but nevertheless it did make me want to get to know my extended family members better, especially my uncles and aunties. Just from that i learnt that communication really does bring cheer into a family.. and that happiness is something that can't be bought. I really do believe that joy comes when you are willing to spend the time and effort in getting to know someone better. That one does not have to be very rich, smart or talented to be happy. Ultimately, a heart thats sincere is all that matters.
Breaking Through - 1:00 AM.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
So many negative things have happened in the past few days and it feels like my life is going downhill. Whats more, it seems like everytime i try to save, something crops up and my hard earned money is gone again.. sigh. i need a breakthrough in every single area of my life. Spiritually, financially, in my relationships, emotions. Lord keep me motivated to strive on. Grant me strength i pray.
Breaking Through - 9:39 PM.
Sometimes i wonder if friends do appreciate the little things that they do for one another.. or do they become so comfortable that they start to take things forgranted? Are people in the world unknowingly making use of one another to get the things they desire? Subtly maybe. It hurts to think about it but face it, it may be true to a large extent.
Breaking Through - 2:34 AM.
i feel so blessed! =D
Breaking Through - 9:05 PM.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
2008 has come to an end and today marked the beginning of a brand new year. Spent new year's eve at kenneth's place crazily rockband-ing, bridge-ing, and lots of other fun stuff, was great! thanks guys, i really enjoyed myself =D In retrospect, 2008 has been a rather eventful year filled with ups and downs. But there are many things i really thank God for. Many times if we just stop and ponder about our lives, we will realize how God has been working in us and the evidence of His grace and mercy. So to my one and only daddy God, thanks:-for giving me such a great family and for bringing us even closer through the many trials and testings.
-for my friends, people in my life like jang, jean, jo, mic, yx, jx, leng, dix, dom, hy, yh and ken, without them life wouldn't be as colourful.
-for Wayne =D what more can i say, thanks for giving me the chance to love.
-for giving me the opportunity to serve You in different areas of my ministries.
-for guiding me and encouraging me in my studies, I know You are always my greatest cheerleader =D
-for the cell group You have placed me in, i truly love w345.
and last of all, thanks for always being there when i needed You. Thanks for never giving up on me no matter how lazy, ill-disciplined and crappy i can get. 2008 has been a good year, but i believe 2009 will be better year with many more breakthroughs, cheers and laughter! =DLabels: Thank You God
Breaking Through - 7:42 PM.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
I love You sweet Jesus
I love You my Lord
I desire more of You, closer in my life
I surrender my all to You
I love You sweet Jesus
I love You my Lord
I give up all i am, in exchange for all of You
I belong to noone else but You
I close my eyes, lift my hands to worship You
You're the love of my life
Noone else matters, in this world but You
Noone can take Your place in my heart
Noone like JesusServing at Cch today was awesome =D It was our last service of 2008 and we had our New Year party! I felt like we had a breakthrough especially in our praise and worship.. Just hearing the little kids sing this song touched me so deeply. I could really sense their love for God, its as though there's nothing in their life to distract or pull them away from Him. I guess its the same for us. Though life may get more complicated and busy as we grow older, we ought to set aside time for God. Time to reflect on His love for us, time just to wait upon Him. And i believe that even in the midst of our frustration, tiredness and exhaustion, He will speak in a still small voice.Labels: still small voice
Breaking Through - 11:14 PM.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Went for a movie with the girls today! Watched Nick and Norah's infinite playlist.. was not bad actually.. it reminded me alot of the movie JUNO.. =D was quite funny and gross in a way but overall was worth the money.. considering i only paid $6 in the first place haha =D Most importantly i really got to spend quality time with Jean, Jo, Lou, Jx, Zhangma, Isabel and Mel! Hee.. never had such good fellowship for quite awhile already and i wanna say that i enjoyed my time with u girls! =P Dix, Ken and Terrence joined us later to have Ben and Jerry's ice-cream =D Yum.. =P Its Christmas Eve tml and i'm gonna be at my aunt's house for a Christmas family dinner! =D Really looking forward to it coz i really love spending time with my cousins and all at such occasions.. and not to mention the good food =D Well.. just in case i get too lazy to blog in the next few days.. Merry Christmas everyone and may you all end 2008 with a bang! =D
Breaking Through - 11:49 PM.
Monday, December 22, 2008
its been 8 days since wayne left for europe and why are the days passing so slowly?! booo... but anyhow, life goes on and Christmas is coming! though i am not really feeling the Christmas vibe yet but its okie.. Christmas is not just about the feel i guess, more about the spirit behind it =D The past week's been rather busy for me.. rehearsals and services for children's church and all.. in the midst of giving tuition.. but i am thankful to be able to serve.. seeing the joy on the kids' faces really motivates me and reminds me of why i am doing what i am doing and assures me that it is all worth it =D and yea i need things to keep me busy during this period of time.. at least till the 12th of jan =D Thinking of taking up another tuition job next yr.. hopefully my timetable allows.. but i suppose with proper planning and time management all things are possible =D like my sis always says.. 'i need to grow my money' =P
Breaking Through - 11:53 PM.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Counting down to the day you come back.. =DLabels: missing you
Breaking Through - 1:03 AM.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Was at starbucks with poop and jelly bean just now and i realize that i really do miss spending time with my best pals.. =( just wanna say that i really do treasure our friendship and i'm sorry for mia-ing for the past few months/weeks.. but anyway, lets have a stayover soon! =D oh and jang was so sweet! She got me a handphone chain with the letter 'A' on it.. and hanging oh her's is one with the letter 'S'.. haha such a gossip girl thing =D thanks poop! u rock =) decided that i will definitely make this holidays meaningful this time round.. serving more in ministry, catching up with friends, working more to earn as much as i can. So... get on with it aileen!!!
Breaking Through - 12:33 AM.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Been watching gossip girl alot recently and i must say i have grown to dislike Dan Humphrey by quite a fair bit, for always jumping to conclusions and blaming Serena for no apparent reason. But on the part of him being the invisible guy in school does trigger something in me, nobody likes to be ignored or sidelined. And its worse being treated like a replacement or knowing that he will never rise to the ranks of Chuck or Nate. Well, still i applaud him for having some self-respect at times. Well done Dan.Labels: Nobody likes to be sidelined
Breaking Through - 1:59 PM.
my legs are aching from running today.. ahhh stand chart marathon's in 6 days.. help =X
Breaking Through - 11:24 PM.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Asia Conference 2008 was phenomenal =D though i felt like i was not there half the time due to the exams and the fatigue that came with it, the little that i caught from the messages is already enough to blow me away. This conference really made me realize how much i love my church and the works of Pastor Kong and Sun. Seeing the impact that Sun is making in China and various parts of the world through her donations and charity work somewhat inspired me to want to be a part of it too. I would love to visit and help the children in China sometime.. at least once in my lifetime =) Mum went for the Benny Hinn miracle service too. And i'm glad she enjoyed it even though we were sitting at the overflow area. I guess God has His time for healing and i believe that mum's healing is on the way. Was running today when God dropped me a thought.. maybe i should start praying and fasting at least once a week for my mum's healing. Mummy! u are gonna receive your healing soon! =DLabels: Healer
Breaking Through - 7:42 PM.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Its day 1 of my exams today.. Lord, be my guide.Labels: You are Lord over all
Breaking Through - 8:47 AM.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I've been having lots of dreams recently, and the funny thing is that i remember every single one of them in detail. Sometimes i wonder if i actually do get any sleep at night. According to what i learnt in HP101 last sem.. people only remember their dreams when they are in the lighter stages of sleep, where their minds are more awake. Hmm.. i should find ways to get deeper sleep haha. And to make things worst my dreams are weird these days, getting chased my the police.. being wrongly accused of being a murderer etc. Maybe its the effect of the upcoming exams on me =X the fear and stress all bottled up inside, only surfacing in my sub-conscious mind.. there's so much to do and so little time but there's one thing i can do and thats to lift everything up to God =D and yes thats what i will do.Labels: endless dreams
Breaking Through - 8:39 AM.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Everytime our church enters a season of prayer, i get very excited coz its always after the week of morning prayers that things start to happen =D though i admit its really tough pulling myself out of bed every morning to get there by 7am.. but i guess its all worth it =) The first 2 weeks of morning prayer did mark an important season in my life and i believe it will again this time round especially with the exams coming up.. =X i can't wait for the 27th! After which i can finally let my hair down when everythings over! Talking about letting my hair down.. wayne went for a haircut yesterday! =D and i brought peanuts for a shave too.. hahaha! =D And i must say they both look better than ever =D
Breaking Through - 2:54 PM.
=D
hahaha why do i see a resemblence =D
Labels: my loves
Breaking Through - 2:48 PM.
How time flies.. its November and soon Christmas will be here. Its been some time since i last blogged, i've been thinking of penning down many things but i guess its just too much to say. Well.. since its the start of the new month, i decided i should revive this blog of mine =D Attended June and Brandon's wedding yesterday.. it was such a romantic and sweet occasion! Felt so happy for the both of them.. seriously they've always been the 'perfect couple' in my impression and now that they have finally tied the knot! =D Just like what Pastor Kong said.. they sure are one of the best looking couples around.. =D What can i say.. weddings do make people think alot too.. haha =D Anyway.. i'm off to mug! Exams around the corner and i have to be prepared in order to enjoy the Asia Conference without doing any last minute mugging during that week... =D
Breaking Through - 4:44 PM.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Thanks wayne for all ur help yesterday =D without it i think i wud still be struggling with the truckloads of surveys and responses to key in.. u rock =D This week's been rather tiring and busy.. with tuition almost every night.. and pressing datelines to meet =X but i thank God for his strength and for people by my side to inspire and motivate me. There's more to come and i pray for my capacity to be greatly enlarged =DLabels: thank God i found you
Breaking Through - 10:35 AM.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Since i'm in a new phase of my life, i really wanna get things right.. to be more organized. To love God and serve Him more, to be a support to my family especially my mum, to spend more time with those i love, to get my school work done on time.. seems like a whole of things to be done but i pray that my capacity will be greatly enlarged. I am not satisfied, i wanna be able to accommodate and achieve more with the time that i have in my hands.Labels: one step at a time
Breaking Through - 6:52 PM.
