LeEn BeAn

2009-06-09T08:39:00.002+08:00

This is the first time in 3 months that i am returning to writing my blog.. and sometimes i feel like there's so many things thoughts that i wanna pen down but when i come down to doing it nothing seems to be able to flow out. Maybe i should write more often so that all these feelings don't get clogged in me and somehow get stuck eventually.

The holidays aren't as exciting or fun as i thought them to be.. torn between having to stay at home or go out since there's really nothing to do, or who to spend my time with. maybe i should just be a loner and stay at home since everyone seems to be unhappy with the things i do now. mum, friends etc. i don't want to start becoming rebellious and angry coz i feel there's a more mature way to handle this. Help me Lord.

2009-03-18T00:01:00.003+08:00

okie hello peeps.. by order of MICHELLE LAM.. i shall attempt to post my wishlist over here.. won't be very specific so i apologize coz i am not sure what i want also. erm.. lets see..
1) a bag/clutch? (any kind's fine)
2) havaianas sandals.. (the one with the back strap)
3) heels?
4) accesories =D

hahaha i think this is a failed attempt.. sorry i tried. Well come to think of it.. anything's fine.. just come out for dinner with me and i will be happy! =D i would really love to spend my birthday with my close friends like u =D hee

2009-03-07T19:07:00.002+08:00

Got home from supper pretty late last night.. or should i say early this morning =X But served for 2 services at Children's Church today and it was awesome! =D Though i was extremely tired having to wake up so early, what Pastor Eileen shared with us at 8.30am in the morning really 'woke me up'. She shared with us on the power of confession and told us to practice confessing 3 things that we really want to see in our life and to have faith in seeing it come to pass. I love the Cch family.. everytime i serve, i feel like i'm constantly soaked in an environment where everyone is so fun-loving but yet still know when its the right time to get serious as well. I will be starting to help out at the smaller Cch services from next week onwards and i'm all excited and geared up for it!! Veroy was also telling us the plans for Easter service and that our target would be for 7000 children to come =D I believe reaching out to the little ones is definitely just as important as anyone else.. indeed its never too young to get saved and start living a purpose-filled life for Christ! =D

2009-03-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

Virology test was a killer today! Or should i say more of a shocker lol. Everyone expected the test to at least have an mcq section but there was none! 50 marks of open-ended questions =S I guess we shouldn't have expected much knowing that the lecturer for this mod is quite a mean and sarcastic guy.. and being the last to arrive for the test in the entire cohort wasn't a good start for me either. haha. While walking down the steps in embarrassment to get the test paper from him, i was praying so hard under my breathe that he would just continue on with his instructions and not decide to make any sarcastic remarks about my late coming. Thank God he chose to be nice for once =D Anyway its over and now i gotta focus on my CS mod test on thursday! 7 chapters of film art to mug through! Woohoo! come on! bring it on! =D

2009-03-01T19:05:00.002+08:00

On the way out from Hall 1 at expo today, we saw 3 lamborghinis parked side by side.. grey, black and white. I don't know if its me dreaming too much about ever owning a sportscar or what, i actually dreamt that i was riding in a convertable style audi R8, with my hair flying in the wind and all. LOL. Speaking of dreams, i have been having lots of them recently.. weird ones in fact. There was one where i was being hunted down by the police for some crime i commited, one in which i took up cooking lessons and failed miserably during the cooking assessment ( i got graded 3/10 by the chef) and now this. My mind seems to be so active these nights.. hmmm.

2009-02-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

Went for dinner today with Wayne at his ah ma's house =D Was pretty jittery about meeting his entire family at first but when i met his ah ma i kinda felt my fears dissipate altogether coz she's such a nice old lady =) Being amongst his family members really did make me feel at ease even though i didn't really talk much to anyone except wayne, his mum and dom. Maybe its because i could sense the closeness in the family. Seeing his cousins and siblings being able to talk to their uncles and aunties freely without any hint of awkwardness or formalities really dropped a thought in my mind.. i don't recall being able to talk like that to any of the elders in my family before without feeling awkward or disrespectful. I guess its different in every family but nevertheless it did make me want to get to know my extended family members better, especially my uncles and aunties. Just from that i learnt that communication really does bring cheer into a family.. and that happiness is something that can't be bought. I really do believe that joy comes when you are willing to spend the time and effort in getting to know someone better. That one does not have to be very rich, smart or talented to be happy. Ultimately, a heart thats sincere is all that matters.

2009-02-04T21:39:00.002+08:00

So many negative things have happened in the past few days and it feels like my life is going downhill. Whats more, it seems like everytime i try to save, something crops up and my hard earned money is gone again.. sigh. i need a breakthrough in every single area of my life. Spiritually, financially, in my relationships, emotions. Lord keep me motivated to strive on. Grant me strength i pray.

2009-02-01T02:34:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder if friends do appreciate the little things that they do for one another.. or do they become so comfortable that they start to take things forgranted? Are people in the world unknowingly making use of one another to get the things they desire? Subtly maybe. It hurts to think about it but face it, it may be true to a large extent.

2009-01-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

i feel so blessed! =D

2009-01-01T19:42:00.005+08:00

2008 has come to an end and today marked the beginning of a brand new year. Spent new year's eve at kenneth's place crazily rockband-ing, bridge-ing, and lots of other fun stuff, was great! thanks guys, i really enjoyed myself =D In retrospect, 2008 has been a rather eventful year filled with ups and downs. But there are many things i really thank God for. Many times if we just stop and ponder about our lives, we will realize how God has been working in us and the evidence of His grace and mercy. So to my one and only daddy God, thanks:

-for giving me such a great family and for bringing us even closer through the many trials and testings.
-for my friends, people in my life like jang, jean, jo, mic, yx, jx, leng, dix, dom, hy, yh and ken, without them life wouldn't be as colourful.
-for Wayne =D what more can i say, thanks for giving me the chance to love.
-for giving me the opportunity to serve You in different areas of my ministries.
-for guiding me and encouraging me in my studies, I know You are always my greatest cheerleader =D
-for the cell group You have placed me in, i truly love w345.

and last of all, thanks for always being there when i needed You. Thanks for never giving up on me no matter how lazy, ill-disciplined and crappy i can get. 2008 has been a good year, but i believe 2009 will be better year with many more breakthroughs, cheers and laughter! =D

2008-12-27T23:14:00.003+08:00

I love You sweet Jesus
I love You my Lord
I desire more of You, closer in my life
I surrender my all to You

I love You sweet Jesus
I love You my Lord
I give up all i am, in exchange for all of You
I belong to noone else but You

I close my eyes, lift my hands to worship You
You're the love of my life
Noone else matters, in this world but You
Noone can take Your place in my heart
Noone like Jesus

Serving at Cch today was awesome =D It was our last service of 2008 and we had our New Year party! I felt like we had a breakthrough especially in our praise and worship.. Just hearing the little kids sing this song touched me so deeply. I could really sense their love for God, its as though there's nothing in their life to distract or pull them away from Him. I guess its the same for us. Though life may get more complicated and busy as we grow older, we ought to set aside time for God. Time to reflect on His love for us, time just to wait upon Him. And i believe that even in the midst of our frustration, tiredness and exhaustion, He will speak in a still small voice.

2008-12-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

Went for a movie with the girls today! Watched Nick and Norah's infinite playlist.. was not bad actually.. it reminded me alot of the movie JUNO.. =D was quite funny and gross in a way but overall was worth the money.. considering i only paid $6 in the first place haha =D Most importantly i really got to spend quality time with Jean, Jo, Lou, Jx, Zhangma, Isabel and Mel! Hee.. never had such good fellowship for quite awhile already and i wanna say that i enjoyed my time with u girls! =P Dix, Ken and Terrence joined us later to have Ben and Jerry's ice-cream =D Yum.. =P

Its Christmas Eve tml and i'm gonna be at my aunt's house for a Christmas family dinner! =D Really looking forward to it coz i really love spending time with my cousins and all at such occasions.. and not to mention the good food =D Well.. just in case i get too lazy to blog in the next few days.. Merry Christmas everyone and may you all end 2008 with a bang! =D

2008-12-22T23:53:00.003+08:00

its been 8 days since wayne left for europe and why are the days passing so slowly?! booo... but anyhow, life goes on and Christmas is coming! though i am not really feeling the Christmas vibe yet but its okie.. Christmas is not just about the feel i guess, more about the spirit behind it =D The past week's been rather busy for me.. rehearsals and services for children's church and all.. in the midst of giving tuition.. but i am thankful to be able to serve.. seeing the joy on the kids' faces really motivates me and reminds me of why i am doing what i am doing and assures me that it is all worth it =D and yea i need things to keep me busy during this period of time.. at least till the 12th of jan =D Thinking of taking up another tuition job next yr.. hopefully my timetable allows.. but i suppose with proper planning and time management all things are possible =D like my sis always says.. 'i need to grow my money' =P

2008-12-16T01:03:00.000+08:00

Counting down to the day you come back.. =D

2008-12-11T00:33:00.003+08:00

Was at starbucks with poop and jelly bean just now and i realize that i really do miss spending time with my best pals.. =( just wanna say that i really do treasure our friendship and i'm sorry for mia-ing for the past few months/weeks.. but anyway, lets have a stayover soon! =D oh and jang was so sweet! She got me a handphone chain with the letter 'A' on it.. and hanging oh her's is one with the letter 'S'.. haha such a gossip girl thing =D thanks poop! u rock =) decided that i will definitely make this holidays meaningful this time round.. serving more in ministry, catching up with friends, working more to earn as much as i can. So... get on with it aileen!!!

2008-12-02T13:59:00.002+08:00

Been watching gossip girl alot recently and i must say i have grown to dislike Dan Humphrey by quite a fair bit, for always jumping to conclusions and blaming Serena for no apparent reason. But on the part of him being the invisible guy in school does trigger something in me, nobody likes to be ignored or sidelined. And its worse being treated like a replacement or knowing that he will never rise to the ranks of Chuck or Nate. Well, still i applaud him for having some self-respect at times. Well done Dan.

2008-12-01T23:24:00.001+08:00

my legs are aching from running today.. ahhh stand chart marathon's in 6 days.. help =X

2008-11-26T19:42:00.002+08:00

Asia Conference 2008 was phenomenal =D though i felt like i was not there half the time due to the exams and the fatigue that came with it, the little that i caught from the messages is already enough to blow me away. This conference really made me realize how much i love my church and the works of Pastor Kong and Sun. Seeing the impact that Sun is making in China and various parts of the world through her donations and charity work somewhat inspired me to want to be a part of it too. I would love to visit and help the children in China sometime.. at least once in my lifetime =)

Mum went for the Benny Hinn miracle service too. And i'm glad she enjoyed it even though we were sitting at the overflow area. I guess God has His time for healing and i believe that mum's healing is on the way. Was running today when God dropped me a thought.. maybe i should start praying and fasting at least once a week for my mum's healing. Mummy! u are gonna receive your healing soon! =D

2008-11-14T08:47:00.003+08:00

Its day 1 of my exams today.. Lord, be my guide.

2008-11-13T08:39:00.003+08:00

I've been having lots of dreams recently, and the funny thing is that i remember every single one of them in detail. Sometimes i wonder if i actually do get any sleep at night. According to what i learnt in HP101 last sem.. people only remember their dreams when they are in the lighter stages of sleep, where their minds are more awake. Hmm.. i should find ways to get deeper sleep haha. And to make things worst my dreams are weird these days, getting chased my the police.. being wrongly accused of being a murderer etc. Maybe its the effect of the upcoming exams on me =X the fear and stress all bottled up inside, only surfacing in my sub-conscious mind.. there's so much to do and so little time but there's one thing i can do and thats to lift everything up to God =D and yes thats what i will do.

2008-11-04T14:54:00.002+08:00

Everytime our church enters a season of prayer, i get very excited coz its always after the week of morning prayers that things start to happen =D though i admit its really tough pulling myself out of bed every morning to get there by 7am.. but i guess its all worth it =) The first 2 weeks of morning prayer did mark an important season in my life and i believe it will again this time round especially with the exams coming up.. =X i can't wait for the 27th! After which i can finally let my hair down when everythings over!

Talking about letting my hair down.. wayne went for a haircut yesterday! =D and i brought peanuts for a shave too.. hahaha! =D And i must say they both look better than ever =D

2008-11-04T14:48:00.005+08:00

hahaha why do i see a resemblence =D

2008-11-02T16:44:00.004+08:00

How time flies.. its November and soon Christmas will be here. Its been some time since i last blogged, i've been thinking of penning down many things but i guess its just too much to say. Well.. since its the start of the new month, i decided i should revive this blog of mine =D Attended June and Brandon's wedding yesterday.. it was such a romantic and sweet occasion! Felt so happy for the both of them.. seriously they've always been the 'perfect couple' in my impression and now that they have finally tied the knot! =D Just like what Pastor Kong said.. they sure are one of the best looking couples around.. =D What can i say.. weddings do make people think alot too.. haha =D Anyway.. i'm off to mug! Exams around the corner and i have to be prepared in order to enjoy the Asia Conference without doing any last minute mugging during that week... =D

2008-10-09T10:35:00.002+08:00

Thanks wayne for all ur help yesterday =D without it i think i wud still be struggling with the truckloads of surveys and responses to key in.. u rock =D

This week's been rather tiring and busy.. with tuition almost every night.. and pressing datelines to meet =X but i thank God for his strength and for people by my side to inspire and motivate me. There's more to come and i pray for my capacity to be greatly enlarged =D

2008-09-28T18:52:00.004+08:00

Since i'm in a new phase of my life, i really wanna get things right.. to be more organized. To love God and serve Him more, to be a support to my family especially my mum, to spend more time with those i love, to get my school work done on time.. seems like a whole of things to be done but i pray that my capacity will be greatly enlarged. I am not satisfied, i wanna be able to accommodate and achieve more with the time that i have in my hands.

2008-09-26T18:12:00.002+08:00

I guess i have to learn to let go.. to look at the brighter side of things, and to trust God that all will turn out fine. To know that you are running after your vision and that its something necessary for you to step out of your comfort zone.. so Jiayou! Will cheer you on no matter what coz thats what best friends are for =)

2008-09-26T02:51:00.003+08:00

I discovered many new things about 2 of my cell group members today.. the 2 J2 guys who just finished their prelims and are apparently quite relaxed.. - Sean and Timothy! Its kind of ironic that they are always finding ways to get at each other but yet can click so well at the same time.. just listening to their conversation is pure entertainment =P here's an example.. (apparently, we were trying to teach Tim how to eat peanuts the proper way..)

Sean + Jo: You have to crack open the shell at the right place..
Tim: Where?
Jo: Where the line is.. press the squishy part.. *demonstrates how the action is done*
Tim: Oh.. *makes his first attempt and fails, then continues several times but still does not succeed..*
Sean: *laughs at Timothy for not being able to crack open a peanut shell properly*
Tim: Sean, your face looks very slappable.. and punchable too.
Leen: hahahahha =D

Supper was great too.. haven't had such a fun bridging session in a loooong time. Though Jang and i were blatantly cheating in the last 2 rounds =P (sorry wayne and lk) haha.. and i'm all geared up for our d'washly + triple j trip man... according to Jang we have to start praying and saving up for the trip.. Therefore.. we have officially appointed mr Tay Leng Kian as our financial advisor and Jeannette as our prayer coordinator for the trip.. powerful duo =X hahahaha =P woohoo.. this is so exciting, i think i won't be able to sleep tonight =)

2008-09-22T15:51:00.006+08:00

I have been sitting staring at the screen for almost 15 minutes and i still don't know wad to blog about! yikes.. but looking at my tagboard, i guess i should be thank everyone for their well wishes?? lol.. even saying that is weird in itself. haha. Anyway i think the person that i really appreciate in all this is Jingxuan =D Though i think you are having alot of fun teasing us, under it all i can sense your true love and concern for us =D Thanks for ur constant support and i hope that your turn will come soon! and when that big day comes, i'll make sure it makes headlines on reuters! hahah not sure about cnn but i bet mr dixie chan will be craving for news too LOL. and to my dearest cousins jean and jo, thanks for staying over on friday! and thanks jean for staying up to listening to my nonsense haha.. and jo for occasionally waking up and scaring us with ur sudden comments. haha. Not forgetting my bestest friend sheila jang! =) i think there's nobody who's in my frequency as much as u poop. lol. but what can i say, great minds think alike! thanks for always being such a great fellow poop and sharing the joy with me =D love u girl! Lastly, my bestest love guru micken.. who plucked me up from the darkest moments of my life (u shud know what i'm talking about).. can never thank you enough for that and i'm really sorry u had to step in and be part of the entire thing lol. hee.. and what more can i say, like sheila's msn nick said, i think i am addicted to my happening friends! ha..

mr polar bear - supper king (its your birthday today so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!)
kenneth - supper king's best friend (aka tlk's other half), even though u are overseas u are still very much part of our lives.. i wonder why LOL
sophie - i dun think i know anyone as nice and sweet as u.. =D
dixie - my news rival cnn whose always trying to 'kope' news unprofessionally..
dom - for being such a nice friend sending all of us home all the time.. i think we need to pay u for the petrol man.. =D
zhangmama - just seeing you makes me laugh =D heeeee
lugu - carebear! =D your compassion for people inspires me =D

Life would be no fun without u guys! =D

I love my life now! coz i have God, my friends and you. =D

2008-09-20T02:44:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day coz i know i'll never be alone anymore =)

2008-09-12T20:59:00.004+08:00

Its 2.18 am in the morning and though technically its saturday already, i'm gonna blog about my weird, different and bad experiences yesterday lol. Friday started off quite well coz my bs205 lecture was not scheduled so i could sleep in a little more.. but had to go down to school for a project meeting and 1 hr tutorial. I guess i felt more stress leaving school than when i stepped in.. but oh well, when was school ever relaxed? =D

Got home and went for a run! =) it was good.. coz i kinda prayed while i ran and felt really recharged =D Headed out for supper at about 945 pm and that was when my night turned baddddd lol. Picked jo up from marine parade and headed down to riverwalk to fetch jang.. waited for about 40 mins before jang called and i tried starting the car and to my horror it couldn't start! argh. called lengkian for help but the car just wouldn't budge and so the entire supper gang came down to riverwalk from east coast. i was really touched =D thanks lengkian, jean, jo, yunxi, dom, sophie, jang, k luon and wayne for coming down allll the wayyyy... east coast is really quite far and i know u all were in the midst of a good supper =( supper gang's the best! =D i guess they are what i call true friends =) hee.. called my dad and he drove down too to help with the towing away of the car. Love you daddy too for always being there and for being so patient and not scolding me hahahah =D

Well.. its been quite an experience i must say, for one, i have never seen a car getting towed away in action before and i must say it was quite an interesting process and two, i know i've got great friends =D wheeeeee

2008-09-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

I have never forced myself to stay awake in lecture so much ever since school started.. lol. But bs202 and bs203 today were almost impossible to understand unless i paid attention and wrote down every single word that came out of the prof's mouth haha. And sleeping at 3.30am the night before did not help at all =X But thank God i managed to stay awake throughout the day thanks to vitasoy, my favorite morning drink and the frequent reminders to myself that if i fell asleep i would be clueless when it comes to the exams (I think i was more like scaring myself) haha. Not to mention the occasional vibration of my phone that kept me going =D i really find the people in my faculty extremely studious and intelligent and i figured that if i did not buck up soon i would never get at out of being at the bottom of the cohort.. which i think i already am =X But well.. no stress, just gonna trust God and work hard... the greatest challenge is ultimately to get disciplined and organized in all areas of my life =D

2008-09-09T19:13:00.002+08:00

Many thoughts within but i just can't express them fully.. what more can i say. So much has happened and i have since experienced mixed emotions of joy, warmth, happiness but at the same time uncertainty, insecurity, confusion.. not too sure myself but what i know is that i need You more than ever before. especially in times like these, i never want to drift away from You while pursuing what i want because i know that i will ultimately lose it all without You. So keep me close coz i need You.

2008-09-07T01:24:00.001+08:00

Tired. Drained. Exhausted. I need rest.

2008-09-01T23:53:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE! =) YOU SHALL RECEIVE UR LONG AWAITED PRESENT ON FRIDAY HAHAHA

Tuition was good today.. got a present from my tuition kid! =) hahaha she is so cute =) i bought her tao kay noi seaweed too! coz she said she liked seaweed hahaha =)

i am happy =D many reasons why but i guess its only the beginning of all things new =)

2008-08-31T18:50:00.003+08:00

oh man its been about 3 mths since i last blogged! and according to sheila jang she has given up on reading my blog! =( sadness.. but i gotta say so many things have happened in the past few months that i dunno where to start =)

First of all.. i have finally graduated from SOT! heee.. these past 4 mths have truly been the time of my life. The friendships forged, the new experiences.. and most importantly, the continuous indwelling of the Holy Spirit and His presence =) But now that its over, i guess the challenge is to keep the same presence and discipline in my life. To thirst and hunger for more of Him everyday, longing to linger in His presence and to soak in His goodness. =) Just a note to add about SOT.. my team members are simply the best! THANK YOU esp those from my cell group: Jang Jang, Jean poop, Jo mo, Lugu, Zhangma, Dixie, and Joce! =) Love u guys!

Not to mention.. the starting of school.. i have hereby appointed louisa chen lifeng as my motivator for this sem! hahaha.. gonna work doubly hard to pull up my oh so below average gpa hahaha.. but i believe its gonna be great =) with the Lord's help i will pull through! =) hee.

I suppose all of us are indeed moving into different phases of our lives.. so many changes taking place that i realize i really need to rely on God more and more each day. He is my ultimate pillar of strength and support.. my secret place.. my source. But i am happy and am looking forward to a more fulfilled life in this half of the year =)

2008-05-23T00:50:00.001+08:00

I anticipated but it did not happen,
I tried but did not succeed,
but i choose to listen and believe the voice of truth, the voice of my God.

2008-05-21T20:32:00.003+08:00

The prayer of Jabez:
"Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that i may not cause pain!"

"Dear God, i commit myself to You today, that i will love You more every single day. Enlarge my territory and influence. Help me truly to be the salt of the earth and the light of the world for You. I pray that Your presence will never leave me and help me not to take Your presence forgranted. Keep me far from evil and temptation and may Your hand be upon my family always. Amen."

2008-03-22T02:35:00.003+08:00

its 2.35 am in the morning now.. haha. just got back from supper with the cell at east coast and i can't sleep so yea i have decided to blog about my birthday! hee =) well there's so much to be sed and so i hope i will be able to pen it all down.. lol. i guess to me how i celebrate my birthday ain't all that important.. all i need is to spend time with my family and friends =D and i glad i got the chance to.. =D

Firstly i really wanna thank my parents and my sister! haha.. my sis gave me my present one day early coz she had to work late on my birthday so she was afraid she couldn't pass it to me on time.. just wanna say thanks jie for being so thoughtful and such a great sister.. even though squabbling is like a daily routine in our lives but to me you are the best sister one can have =) and to my mum and dad, thanks for the card and the angpao. thanks mum for waking up so early to surprise me with the card.. i was truly so happy and touched i actually teared. haha.

My day in school was great too coz of the coolest friends on earth! A big shoutout to janice, ranjani, hwang ching and puikhuan! =) thanks for the prezzie and most of all the fact that u girls put in so much effort for the surprise.. u girls are the sweetest! *hugs* Life in uni wud never be the same without you gals around.. i never fail to have a good laugh in school everyday coz of all of u.. and not to forget our ever so wonderful bridging sessions =)

And my life would not be complete without my cell group! =) thanks W345 for the pretty card and all your lovely birthday wishes! hmm i dunno how to express this but i was really very happy when i saw the card so filled with wishes coz reading cards is what i actually enjoy most about birthdays! haha. really appreciate every single one of you and yup lets continue to grow and shine for God together! =)

Last but not least i wanna thank a few people who have really made an impact in my life..
Jean - thanks for always being there to help me when i feel drained or down. to me you will always be the best listener and counsellor!
Jo - you are the sweetest girl! thanks for the bag and the donuts.. hee. i think i relate to you best in most of our situations coz they seem scarily similar heehee. i think you know wad i mean, dun need to elaborate =)
Sheila - my ever goodest friend! =) thanks poop for always being so supportive and understanding.. love you and i am always truly happy to know that we will be friends for life =)
Michelle -thanks for all the advice and help that you have given me these years.. i am always very encouraged and inspired by what you tell me =) love ya!
Leng kian, Jasper and the rest of the supper gang - suppering with you all always makes me look forward to friday and the weekend. thats how important fellowshipping with you guys is to me! =) hee thanks for everything! =)

ok a last BIG thank you to - jean, jo, sheila, junwen, leng kian, janice, angel, bernice, ranjani, hwang ching, pui khuan, derek, song hui, wee meng, simin, lingxiu, roxanne, dominic, amanda, jasper, andy, michelle, audrey, louisa, jin jin, pandora, tina, estella, roy, yvette, rayna, glen, tim, erica, stephanie, sharon and sister joanna! sorry if i missed anyone out coz there's too much on my mind now.. haha. Thanks for your wishes! i feel so blessed and loved! =)

2008-03-19T22:31:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me =)

2008-03-11T20:39:00.005+08:00

i think its been a little less than a month since my last post.. lol (sorry jang!) haha.. its kinda ironic that i am blogging now when i have two tests this week.. or shud i just say that i have poor time management. ahhh. =X i realise that everytime there's a test in the week it seems to pass more slowly.. or is it coz i can't wait to get over and done with it =D well, i decided that i really have to buck up and start mugging hard now for my exams in order to pull up my not so fantastic gpa from last sem.. (feeling the stress!) went for a family dinner last sunday coz it was my daddy's birthday (happy birthday daddy!) and we were discussing how miraculous it was that i actually got into a local uni with my again not so fantastic a level grades.. haha. okie so i decided that one setback is enough.. as Kelvin preached in last sat's cell event.. NO MORE 'WHAT IFS'! since the time i got back my a level results i have always regretted not studying harder during my jc days and wondered where i would be if i did.. but now i am sure that God definitely has a better and BIGGER plan for me! =) heee.. ok i am so inspired and motivated to go study now =D

2008-02-18T19:38:00.003+08:00

Dear God,
thanks for always being there for me when i need you,
thanks for giving me opportunities and open doors and for never giving up on me,
thanks for loving me no matter how hard i try to love myself sometimes.
Loyalty, commitment, respect, accountability, family, love, hard work, integrity, faithfulness and being generous.
God help me be more like You.

2008-02-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

i have decided that from now on, i am going to :
- eat dinner at home everyday except maybe for suppers with the supper gang on fridays
- bring lunch from home to school
- not shop except for peeps like jean jo and jang who's birthdays are ard the corner.. and maybe my pooch peanuts..
- swim at nie instead of public pools where i have to pay.. haha
- walk to serangoon mrt instead of taking a bus
- stay away from k box, movies and arcades unless the occasion calls for it.. wahaha

all because my heart aches everytime i check my account balance and i want to save money.. i want to fulfill my building fund! Help me Lord.

2008-01-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

Was feeling miserable coz of my fever and being unable to find a place in my elective class.. but came across this verse and i have nothing to say but thank you Lord...

Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust,
And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.
Many, O Lord my God, are Your wonderful works
Which You have done;
And Your thoughts toward us
Cannot be recounted to You in order;
If i would declare and speak of them,
They are more than can be numbered.
- Psalms 40:4-5

Just knowing that God is constantly thinking of us makes me feel so loved. So no matter how lousy i feel, i just want to place my trust in my one great God! =D

2008-01-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! =) hee.. today is mummy dearest's birthday but went out for dinner to celebrate yesterday.. haha. i just wanna say that my mum has never failed to inspire me with her thoughts and actions.. she's the best! Thanks mum for always being there when i need you.. for bringing me up in such a warm and comfy home and for giving me all your love. sorry for the times i made you worry and sad.. promise those nonsense will stop =) Your resilience and faith through this period of time has taught me to never give up no matter what circumstances we are placed in.. i really treasure the times we spend together especially the days when i accompany you to the docs and when you tell me all those funny stories about our family.. =) i truly believe that God is true to His Word and will always be watching over our family.. He will grant you your heart's desires so keep going strong! =D Love you loads and i know that in this brand new year, we will continue to experience even greater miracles than those we have already seen in our lives! =)

2008-01-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

Lord help me to be wiser and sharper! i dunno why i am getting so blur these days.. i reported for the wrong shift at work, i selected the wrong tutorial timeslot for my elective.. argh. and lectures, tutorials and labs are officially starting this week.. can't afford to mess things up anymore.. lol.. ok i just lost the 'feel' to blog.. ahhh... next time folks.

2008-01-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

i think i spent more than six bucks on transport today.. eeks. let me recount my bad bad day which i could have spent lazing at home.. haha. went to school at 8.30am in the morning for lecture only to realise after sitting there for 15 mins that there WASN'T lecture coz the professor WASN'T even in town.. haha. and so i decided to go home since my other lecture for the day was only at 1.30pm and i wanted to run coz i had work later in the day.. ( i know u must think i am mad going home just to run ).. haha.. i shall not try to justify myself. lol. well anyway i got home at 11am.. went to run, washed some clothes, clear peanut's pen, hung the clothes, bathed and left the house at 12.15pm.. hahaha... i seriously think i am crazy. hoho. well.. got to school and went for lecture which only lasted half an hour instead of the specified 3 hrs since it was only an introductory lecture... i felt like punching myself at that moment *abish* i rushed back to school just for half an hour of the lecturer's quite crappy introduction?! haha.. well in the end janice, ranjani and i went to jurong point to walk a little and i bought some stuff too before heading down to work.. boohoo.. haha.. but nvm.. had quite a good laugh about it too =)

2008-01-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

i foresee its gonna be a real busy semester for me! working three times a week.. five day school week.. ministry commitment.. but somehow i have the peace of God that i will be able to cope. just need a little stretching in terms of my capacity. haha. and i guess doing away with the time spent slacking and watching tv will help alot =D first day of school today and it was obvious my body isn't quite used to it yet.. haha. was dozing off at lecture and i felt real bad.. couldn't help myself i must confess lol. and i am not sure why but my left eye has been rather red since sunday.. weird.. but well.. hope my biological clock adapts fast enough.. hoho. worked night shift today too =) was fun being able to chat and laugh with my manager again.. haven't seen my subway peeps in quite a while since i didn't work much during the hols.. and while having a random conversation with one of my colleagues today, i realise that our country is really well liked by foreigners.. though many of us locals cannot help but complain about every single thing.. this colleague of mine is from nepal ( ain't it cool.. knowing that mt everest is in ur country.. hee ) and he told me he likes living in Singapore. ahahaha. i was quite amused and proud of our country for that moment lol. anyway the reason why i am blogging so late is coz work ended prety late coz at 10pm sharp, the closing time for subway.. a whole group of students from some school flocked in and started orderng right up till 10.30pm.. should have taken a photo of my manager at that time.. she looked so sian coz she was planning to go home early to her kids that night.. felt quite sorry for her =( but well i guess working in the f&b industry is like that.. hope the boss will be able to work something out for her in the long term coz she's really nice.. always treating us and all =) hoho. ok i think i am going to snooze now.. lest my left eye gets redder from the lack of sleep =D

2008-01-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

its back to school tmr.. wouldn't say i am particularly excited but i guess its time to start working hard and improving my grades. and wad better time to do it then at the start of a new year =) university life has been fun i must say but somehow i feel i haven't tasted the best of it.. in terms of friendships, i thank God that i found a group of friends whom i can really count on.. friends like janice, ranjani and hwang ching.. u girls really make me feel like i can always be myself around u and not to mention the constant encouragement and edification =) on the other hand i do pray for the stength to really stretch myself and expand my capacity this year.. my capacity to love people more and to be more interested in the lives of others, especially those who are different. What Pastor preached today really got me to realise that life is really about whom you are living for. i want to live for my family, w345, my friends and most importantly, i want to lay down my life for the kingdom of God. This year, my number one resolution would be to grow more spiritual and to really seek Him like never before. thats coz i know that all other things will be added on when this one resolution is fulfilled. =) my mum's healing, my family's salvation, good grades.. i believe in time they will come.

2008-01-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

hello peeps.. been missing in action for a long time.. its the second day of the new year so decided to blog a little.. hee. Holidays are coming to an end in about 4 days.. what to say, i have mixed feelings i guess. But like what jean said, the best word to describe this month of holidays would be 'stayovers'! haha.. i think i stayed over at jean and jo's for about 10 nights?! dunno if i am exaggerating but we really had loads of fun crashing at each others' places several nights in a row.. most importantly we had countless nights of talking which really helped alot =) just wanna say thanks jelly bean, mojojojo and poopster for being there when i needed u girls! lets strive on together! jiayou =)

well.. 2007 has passed and it was generally a good year.. though filled with many changes but had many new experiences as well.. for now i just wanna focus on 2008 and make it the best year yet! hoho =D gonna be dedicated to the decisions i make and be disciplined as well.. like what pastor tan preached.. woohoo.. excited for the new challanges ahead! =)

2007-12-13T00:58:00.000+08:00

It been about 24 hours since we broke camp yesterday night and i am kinda missing the fun we had already.. haha. i had an awe some time at camp for the past three days =) though we were thrown into living conditions that some of us would not be used to.. like bathing in 4 mins and sleeping on hard ground, i feel that whats most important is that we adapted well to it and got to know one another more in the midst of our "suffering" haha.. as quoted by pastor. i thank God for the breakthrough and i believe thats its really time for me to focus on Him alone. Being in His presence is just so precious and i don't ever want to take it forgranted again. =)

I wanna thank my group 太阳饼 for making the camp so fun and mic for being such a great leader =) jean for always being there, jo for being so spontaneous, jang for all the laughter u bring, esther for being so adaptable and funloving despite our age gap, lou for being ever so caring, sharon for your helpfulness and for being so cheery always, and the rest of the group too! sorry if i left out anyone.. kinda feeling tired from choir practice.. hee. Also wanna thank the leaders, organizers and the band for putting in so much effort into the camp. It was an awesome time i had with everyone and most importantly, i believe everyone had something memorable to learn from and to take away from this camp =)

2007-11-29T20:08:00.003+08:00

sorry my blog is still under contruction so dun mind if there's anything weird on this page.. i haven't edited it yet! =)

2007-11-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Went for my first wednesday choir practice at Jurong West church today! haha.. really miss that place alot =( but it was great going back there and knowing that i will be back there every wednesday from now on! heee. was quite lost during prac today coz i guess they kinda learnt most of the songs and parts already so when they sang i was like ?! but well.. will try my best to catch up soon! haha.. its so fun singing in a group and knowing that u sound good together.. haha! i enjoy choir alot and i'm so glad i joined this ministry.. though having to juggle 2 ministries is hard but i shall rely on God for the strength =) i was looking through my organizer today and i realised that my holidays are really packed.. ahh.. its either work, inter-school games or going out.. ah i wanna spend more time at home lazing! eeks.. i hope everything in my schedule fits into place nicely.. wudn't want everything to clash and ah i think i will go mad if that happens =X okie its back to studying for now.. one more to go! woohoo =)

2007-11-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

ah i envy those who have finished their exams! i've got 2 more papers to go =( one more week! hee.. well, exams are not that bad after all.. at least i get to stay home instead of go to school. lol. anyway.. enough about exams. =) went for my first choir prac today and it was a really new experience i must say. haha. this ministry is very different from hospitality but wad worries me now is how i have to juggle both of them at the same time. i'm happy to be in choir but yet i dun want to slacken in my commitment to hospi.. sigh. and the thought of leaving hospi gets me kinda down.. hmm.. thats something i did not expect coz i always thought maybe a change in ministry would be better. think i have grown attached to hospi over these few years =) talked to my leader about it and she sed i could try out for a month and see if i can cope with both ministries.. i love my leader =) she's always so understanding heee =) just hearing that from her kinda lifted that burden in my heart hahaha. ok =) gonna give my best shot at both choir and hospi.. just as the song from children's church says.. 'i'll grow up serving You' .. and yea i still consider myself to be growing up even though we are hitting the '2' digit in a few months! (much to the dismay of sheila jang) hahaha. =)

2007-11-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

ok one lab report down one last report of the semester to go, not forgetting the need to study.. guess its gonna be a long night for me.. but i will perservere! yay =D

2007-11-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

I love cell =) i really needed the msg today and Jingxuan u preached well! =D exams are just around the corner and i guess stress is smthing that everyone is going through but well, just gotta put ur trust in Him! though i feel like smacking myself smtimes coz i am such a procrastinator when it comes to mugging.. its almost like with my exams drawing nearer, i am getting increasingly addicted to watching shows on youtube =X eeks. but well, i am going to apply what i have learnt today! yay! i am very excited to see the work of God in my life and in my studies actually.. hee. just so many things in my mind but i just can't seem to pen it down right now. lol. first of all building fund pledging was last week and i feel that the church has really gone up another level as a whole in faith. it wasn't as emotional and teary as the previous years in that everyone just seemed so determined to sacrifice and do whatever it takes for our stadium. haha. i have claimed it. OUR STADIUM =)

Also recently i have been feeling like i need to do more with my life.. like we hear of people saying that everyone has limits and yes i do agree with that but i dun even feel like i am anywhere near my limit at all and that i can do more in my life, i can do more for God. In the area of serving, reaching out, helping out in the cell.. growing my group. Like what was said in cell today, busyness does not equate to productivity and i admit that i often try to pack my schedule with activities so that i will feel fulfilled and satisfied with myself for achieving so much in a day but when i come to think of it, i'm in fact just keeping myself busy. i need to do more for my family, to be there for my mum. to give her hope when she feels down and to help out whenever i can. i need to enlarge my capacity. God, i need You.

2007-10-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

i feel lazy.. haven't blogged in ages.. lol. i hope its due to fatigue though. This past week has been real tiring, lab reports to rush, tutorials to catch up on and not forgetting my markting project.. argh. didn't sleep at all for 2 nights.. guess thats why i crashed on friday after coming home from school and didn't manage to do anything during the weekend too.. lol. tml marks the start of another busy week.. more lab reports, tutorials.. and the list goes on. guess the stress level is above average and its constantly increasing as the exams draw near but i thank God for His peace and edification =D really grateful as well for the people in my life, those who have been cheering me on in this race... heee. well.. with God i know that come what may, tml will always be a better day! =)

2007-10-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

i'm happy! passed my driving test yesterday =D hee.. been waiting so long for the day i can stop going for driving lessons and missing classes as a result. lol. had my first drive this morning =D volunteered to drive my parents to the market since i woke up really early.. must say that being able to drive is fun even though my parking is still errr.. kinda terrible. haha. dad had to park the car for me hahaha. that made me more motivated to Anyway, going to the market for breakfast so early on a saturday morning was something i haven't done in years... it felt good though... besides the fact that it was extremely crowded and i had to get a seat without offending those aunties who were vying for seats too.. kinda felt bad telling one auntie that i was reserving the seats since i was there first. she looked quite angry and i was seriously scared lol. but well i timidly stood my ground.. ironic i know but i guess there's nothing wrong in doing that since i got there first? haha pls tell me i'm right if not i will feel bad lol. ok anyway.. i guess it was something to remember.. 'my trip to the market for breakfast'.. haha sounds like a primary school composition... =D and exactly what have i learnt from it? to stand firm on my convictions? lol.. just kidding =D

2007-10-11T11:08:00.000+08:00

in school now! haha.. i have been without sleep for the past 24 hours.. heee. got home at around 5am last night! or shud i say this morning. lol. took a bath, did my tutorials, slept for 15 mins, and headed to school again. =X but i had a great time with jean, jo and jang last night.. i think it was record breaking for us lol. we stayed in macs till breakfast was made available =D hoho. i can't believe us haha. but just wanna say that u gals rock and i love u all =D

2007-10-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

Marketing tutorial wasn't all that bad today.. after what happened last week when the tutor scolded us for talking just when we were discussing some stuff concerning the presentation which was going on.. he asked us to repeat what he sed thinking that we weren't listening.. to be honest i was very shocked at that point of time but thanks to janice who rebutted him almost immediately. wahaha. all hail janice! lol anyway i finally finished my lab reports.. * wipes brow * it was a torture i must say. this week has been so busy i dun even have time to blog or do anything else online besides to do research and print notes. argh. but glad its over.. for now. haha.

2007-10-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

so much for trying so hard to start the week right.. messed up the first day already :( why do u have to start a quarrel when all i did was just ask you to check your bank account to see if my school fees have been deducted? is it that hard i dun understand. not that i can't take the shouting or scolding, i just hate letting mum step in and trying to settle the problem amicably. shouldn't we be standing united at a time like this, standing by her and supporting her and not making her worry all the time. God, i pray for unity and most importantly, peace.

2007-09-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

i am so proud of myself! i was early for ministry today and i didn't take a cab! lol.. but i kinda got lost though. =X was supposed to meet amanda and mingzhe at the tampines round market but i alighted at the wrong bus stop.. had to walk about 20 blocks down before i got to the food centre.. wonder how i found my way there too. hoho. ok i have decided to kick my bad habit of always being late for almost everything and for being such a procrastinator.. seriously need to catch up on my schoolwork =X God pls pls give me the strength to pull through this week and the weeks ahead! =D

2007-09-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

Haha.. ok jean! this post is for you! lol.. hmm ten weird things? am i suppose to put those rules down.. ok i shall copy and paste from ur blog wahaha.. =P here goes...

Each player of the game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write it in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

#1 i love talking to my beloved pooch peanuts coz he's my closest pal.. somehow i believe he understands =D

#2 i get cranky if i dun exercise and so i will go running even if i'm running late for something else.. which means most of the time the reason i'm late is coz i went running ( this is more of a bad bad habit =X )

#3 i don't hate vegetables but i realise i don't eat most kinds.. peas, carrots, corn, celery, eggplant, capsicum, pickles, olives, bittergourd are some of the greens that put my off.. actually i think i only like the leafy kinds

#4 there's never a day i go without fruits though..

#5 i wake up in the wee hours of the morning at times to watch drama serials on youtube.. hee.. i kinda enjoy doing that in fact =D

#6 i am a very homey person.. i like the feeling of going home and being in the warmth of my family and my cosy room.. one of the reasons why i dun understand why anyone wud choose hall life over a homey life!

#7 i get high at the weirdest times.. mostly when i am with my wacky cousins =D

#8 i prefer food thats plain rather than tasty. according to jean, i'm missing out on yummy singaporean dishes like laksa.. (i haven't eaten that dish in years =X)

#9 a very bad habit that i need to kick.. i always fall asleep within a few mins after attempting to study or do my work.. argh.

#10 i took more than 3 weeks to draft this blog entry out.. maybe i dun know enough about myself. lol.

2007-09-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

Its past 1 a.m.. just got home from supper at chomp chomp! haha.. went for polar bear's 21st birthday celebration before that and we had a really good time! Anyway, its past 12 midnight so happy birthday leng kian! =D Mic introduced a new game to us today called charoodles.. its rather similar to charades just that there are 'props' that you have to use to get the players to guess the actions that you are acting out.. jang and i were practically addicted to that game. lol. Its been quite long since we had such good fellowship and even though life hasn't been exactly smooth sailing this past month, there are just so many people that i wanna thank for always being there for me =D I'm forever grateful to God for putting people like jean, jo, sheila, mic and the rest of the gang in my life coz without them i dun think i wud still be holding on. really love u girls alot and i just wanna say that in all circumstances we will hang on together! =D

To jean, thanks for being so encouraging and for always listening =D ur postcards never fail to cheer me up and i'm truly wow-ed by your perseverence and diligence. If it weren't for ur willingness to listen that night, i wud probably find it harder to pick myself up. Love you!

To jo, my most interllectual cousin! heee.. thanks for ur constant words of edification even though i know u are feeling the pressure as well.. i really appreciate you being there for me and for being able to tolerate all my sudden 'hyper tendencies' all the time. hoho.. love you too!

To jang, you are like the person who can practically guess what i'm thinking most of the time coz maybe we think similarly in many ways.. haha =D But i really love the feeling of sharing and just talking till day break like wad we did about a week ago. Thanks for being such a great sister in Christ.. love you loads too!

To mic, thanks for always challenging me to enlarge my capacity and for believing in me. Your words never fail to inspire me to think deeper and i'm constantly reminded of all that you said to encourage me when i had doubts. Love you loads!

2007-09-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

School was great today.. though tired i made a resolution not to fall asleep during my lectures and i didn't! haha hmm maybe except for that 2 mins i dozed off in bs 104 lecture but well.. really want to keep up with the lectures.. hee. got off to a good start with bs102, realised that if i paid enough attention, i actually understood those physics jargons that wud usually sound foreign to me.. lol. then had bs101 and 103 tutorials.. followed by lecture again and then marketing tutorial.. ended at 6. its been a long day but i'm glad i learnt many new things =D

2007-09-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

new blogskin! =D hoho

2007-09-09T18:25:00.000+08:00

Nic Vujicic is the most determined and inspiring person i have seen and heard. Though born without limbs, he has accomplished so much and impacted the lives of millions around the world.. i guess there really isn't a 'can't do' in his dictionary.. and it shud be the same for all of us! Seeing him really got me thinking that there really is nothing that is impossible with God. Faith and grace are given by God but trusting in Him is something we have to decide for ourselves. i want to chase after things that are eternal, for that is where true happiness lies. i believe that You have not left me in all these, and in You only do i place my trust.

2007-09-07T06:06:00.000+08:00

its 6am in the morning.. woke up all of a sudden and i can't get back to sleep.. so decided to iron some of my dad's clothes before coming online haha.. i think there's some problem with my biological clock now lol anyway its gonna be a fun day today.. i hope. i have a lab session at 2.30 in the afternoon and may join my og for a game of badminton after that hee =D its funny how its so dark now and i can't see the keyboard and am typing everything wrongly lol.. =X anyway think i'm off to sleep/ watch some show on youtube now! hoho

2007-09-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

Ran in the X-campus run organized by the runners club today.. think the distance was about 6.5k.. not too bad but the slopes really killed me.. haha. came in 6th in position, lingx came in 5th, jang 9th and rox 12th.. haha. but it was a good run just that i'm really very tired now.. took the train and reached home at about 9.40pm.. my whole body is aching now and i can't rest coz have to do my tutorials for tml! ah! ok gtg.. time to mug =D AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2007-09-03T22:28:00.001+08:00

Typical day at school today.. had lectures, french tutorial and lab! lol.. was actually looking forward to lab but it turned out that lab today was on cells.. which means just observing some cells on the glass slides and answering ridiculously hard questions.. haha. wasn't all that fun but learnt some new stuff anyway. Was so tired on my home that i fell asleep on the train and missed my stop.. lol. well didn't exactly miss the stop but woke up at outram where i was suppose to alight.. knowing me i was to embarrassed to rush for the exit but i got up anyway to try my luck but a pity there were too many people blocking the exit and yea.. i didn't manage to get off. lol so i just stood there calmly pretending that i actually intended to get off on the next stop.. hahaha =X anyway gonna go swimming tml with janice at school.. hope it doesn't rain though if not i will just go workout at the gym haha. ok think i got to rush.. got tutorials to catch up on! =D

2007-09-02T19:37:00.000+08:00

Come on aileen now that you have bought ur textbooks its time to study! i dun want to be left behind in lectures, tutorials.. its the same feeling that i got back in jc and i never want history to repeat itself. Give me strength God to carry on.. to continue seeking You. I never want to be distracted.. i never want to let You go.

cousins unite

2007-08-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

i am happy =D had so much fun today dragon boating with the subzone and with my cousins! So glad tim, isaac, elisha and jason joined us for the event today. hoho. Although neither of us have tried dragon boating before, it was a cool first experience.. lol. it poured right after we started but i guess it didn't dampen our spirits.. hee. and our cell won champions for the tug of war challange! yay great job W345! =D woohoo! headed down to marina for steamboat straight after dragon boating in our wet clothes.. wasn't all that comfortable but everyone was happy anyway =D and amongst us cousins i think jason was the best cook man.. although isaac was the best poser lol. =X tim wasn't that bad either with his seafood specialities and elisha too. i'm kinda sad that they have to go back to canada so soon.. i mean we hardly get to see each other at all since they are a thousand miles away and its really expensive to fly over every now and then to visit. but their visit this time really brought us cousins and the family alot closer together. the steamboat today was like the first time in years since we cousins gathered for a meal together without the adults.. sometimes i wonder when we will get this rare chance again but i pray and hope it will be soon =D gonna miss them loads but will always remember them in my prayers.. will upload some pictures soon! =D

2007-08-19T00:32:00.000+08:00

I am exhausted. Today was a rather tiring day but i am satisfied. Worked in the morning till about 12 then rushed home to bathe before rushing out again for prayer meeting at joce's house.. pm was great by the way, really feel that now is the time for us to prepare ourselves for a great harvest and i'm really excited about it =D and it was when we were praying in groups that i felt God speak to me about waiting upon Him and seeking Him like never before. Its true how we often long to have the kind of relationship with God which the pastors always speak of but in fact we can have it as long as we are willing to press in further to seek Him. Well God, i pray for your strength that i may enlarge my capacity and stretch myself more than ever to manage my time well and do great things for Your kingdom =D

2007-08-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

Today was a rather fruitful day.. decided that i shall start planning my everyday schedule in such a way that i will have lotsa things to do every minute so that i will not waste my time bumming around anymore. lol =D woke up to a bad start actually coz i was suppose to meet my cross pals for a run at east coast but kinda overslept.. sorry girls! went to run on my own eventually but realised that morning runs are really not my thing.. lol.. especially alone. Couldn't get those lazy legs to move.. hee. =D Joined lingx and zzz after that for a swim at zzz's condo.. didn't really swim actually.. haha.. just relaxed and caught up with each other =D lunch was at astons before rushing down for cell.. haha. Went swimming for the second time in a day after cell.. this time with sheila! i think she blogged about it already so i shudn't repeat the same thing.. lol.. but had fun and i'm sorry jang if my teaching skills are horrible! haha.. shall work harder to be a better coach. lol =P

2007-08-05T01:55:00.000+08:00

hey peeps i am at jean and jo's house now! currently 'koping' jean's laptop to blog.. wahaha =D anyway just came home from fop.. it was great! haha though i was a little tired really felt such a strong presence of God in the stadium.. really heartwarming to see so many christians in singapore gather together to praise and worship God together and i really believe that there will be a mighty revival in singapore soon in our generation! wah my eyes feel so dry now, think my contacts are drying up.. haha k nights peeps! will blog more when i am less lazy lol =D

2007-07-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a family dinner and i'm happy! =D hee.. nothing beats the joy of having your whole family gather together for a warm and fuzzy dinner! lol. My relatives who immigrated to canada are back for a holiday thats why we are having so many family dinners so often these days and i sometimes i really wish it would stay this way.. :( i mean our family does meet up at times but i realise that as we grow older, these meetings don't take place as often anymore. Well.. will pray for more family bonding! =D but had a great time with my cousins today.. ate 'zhi ca' and managed to catch up with those who just came back from canada. We actually had a gathering last night too at jean and jo's place coz they had their house warming.. and by the way, nice and cozy house u got there! hehe. and the food was good too.. hoho. =P took some family photos.. will post them up soon! cheers =D

2007-07-23T12:36:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days since i came back from camp.. haha. i concussed an hour after reaching home on friday evening and only woke up at about 11 the next day! haha.. what a pig. =D well, camp was really fun, made many new friends and i'm really thankful i got gls who were extremely nice to us throughout 5 days of camp. They made us feel very welcomed in the faculty and i guess going back to school is not such a dreadful thing after all.. haha. come to think of it i have been slacking for the past 8 months and its time to get on my feet and study again! woohoo =D hee. ah, i'm kinda lazy to type more.. will do so when i post up the pics taken during the camp! cheerios! =D

new found faith

2007-07-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

Service was great today =D thanks jo for really encouraging me this whole week and pushing me to step out of my comfort zone.. i guess this is the period where we really need to enlarge our capacity and rise up =D but i'm really glad i went despite my struggles coz i feel stirred up in the spirit already. The sermon was on healing today and it renewed my mindset on how it is always the will of God for us to get healed and that we should pray for others to get healed in order to receive our own healing.. both inner and outer healing =D Well i really wanna have the courage to pray for others.. not that i doubt the healing power of God but somehow it gets hard at times.. but i believe there always has to be a start to everything. For me, i think i will start by praying for my own family members, my mum in particular.. i believe she will get healed one day and will never stop praying and believing =D

2007-07-10T17:55:00.000+08:00

Jean and I =D

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Jo and I =D

2007-07-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

my beloved cousins!

2007-07-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! since jo was so sweet to dedicate a post to me, i shall do the same too! But then again maybe jean will get jealous so i shall dedicate this post to my dearest twin cousins! Well lets see.. jelly bean (jean) is like a 'da jie' to me coz she's always so affirming, encouraging, strong, smart and calm.. and blur sometimes too lol! and my dear mojojo.. she's determined, cool, intelligent, has a never-say-die attitude.. and most recently is becoming quite 'auntie'.. haha! just kidding! =X but really wanna thank God for my twin cousins jean and jo for always being there for me.. its funny that they are my cousins but yet we are not the typical cousins like those that meet only during family dinners.. in fact we see each other more than once every week! haha.. and we're closer than friends so yea.. dunno how to describe our relationship =D But most importantly i must say that they are the ones i believe God has placed in my life to help me grow spiritually as well as emotionally.. they will never fail to challange me to excel in all areas of my life and my walk with God, especially in doing my quiet time faithfully and stepping out of my comfort zone. I wouldn't be who i am today without them coz it was them who brought me to chc and to this wonderful family =D i remember the days when i wud gladly follow them to church when they asked to but lock my room door and pretend to be asleep when they asked me to attend cell group. wahaha. hmm.. thank God for their persistence and perseverence. hoho. Just wanna say i love you girls loads and loads and i really appreciate the things u both have done for me! =D its only with u girls that i always get into my 'high' mood.. i'm sure you know what i'm talking about.. haha. but i enjoy every moment spent with the both of you and thank God for putting you in my life =D

2007-07-04T23:33:00.001+08:00

Woke up today from a terrible nightmare! haha.. i wouldn't say its the typical one where you are being chased by witches or mad people.. but it really made me realise how apprehensive i am at the thought of going back to school.. haha. In the dream i was back in jc.. the june holidays just ended and as usual it was the start of the weeks of examinations.. and i dunno why but i was not prepared at all.. somehow in the dream i forgot to study or something.. and i was so scared i just decided not to take any of the papers and so i missed 4 days of school?! haha.. it felt so real with all the teachers calling me and stuff.. lol. My mum says maybe its a reminder for me to start preparing for uni and yea i agree.. not gonna repeat the same mistakes i made in jc and i'm gonna shine for God with my good grades! =D hee Anyway, below are some random pictures i took in the past few weeks.. some from the night cycling event =D Collecting the bicycles sure had its advantages! we had so much fun sitting at the back of the lorry with a mountain of bikes behind us! haha.. the four of us ( Jean, Jo, Jingxuan and i ) kept insisting on sitting at the back till the uncle relented.. hoho. but it was a cool experience! =D oh and i took some pictures of peanuts my dog in his new home.. haha. i love peanuts =D

2007-07-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

dangerous but fun!

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Having fun at the back of the lorry!

2007-07-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

Jingxuan and Joanne!

2007-07-04T23:27:00.000+08:00

Being nosey in our new home..

Nightmare

2007-07-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

Peanuts!

After trip to the groomers =D

2007-06-27T20:46:00.001+08:00

heehee.. i finally uploaded some of my redang pictures! haha.. below are some of the wonderful memories of the times we had in redang =D will never forget the fun we had! its only after the trip that i realised how much i love the outdoors.. always loved nature and stuff but its so different when u are actually out there enjoying it! well.. going on holidays has become one of my many reasons to continue working hard.. haha. will probably continue to work once i settle down in the uni =D anyway today was my first day at work at mic's mum's company! haha.. the office is really comfortable and working there is fun coz jo, jasper and weifen are working there too! hoho. The work assigned to us was also managable so i guess its gonna be a great time working there for the next week or so! Thanks mic for offering us this job! and ur mum is really fun and very much like u.. haha or shud i say u are very much like ur mum. wahaha. =X well looking forward to another good day at work tml! =D

2007-06-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

2007-06-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

my running pals! =D

mummy dearest

2007-06-24T20:51:00.001+08:00

Just had dinner and what can i say.. homecooked food is still the best! =D Though i haven't been eating homecooked food for like the past 8 years, i'm really thankful to my parents for putting in so much effort ever since we moved to our new place.. my mum for trying her best to cook even though she hasn't touched the stove in years.. and my dad for cleaning and painting the house.. haha i wanted to help but he sed i dun have the skill to paint so =X Life in my new house has been rather comfortable so far.. other then me feeling bored some times.. coz now i can't just pop down and disturb the twins coz they are not there anymore :( but well.. i guess our relationship hasn't been affected at all by this change and in fact its gotten better =D yay. hee but i must say i feel closer to my parents now already and really thank God for that.. =D

Anyway went for lunch with my cross girls yesterday at cafe cartel.. hee.. a renuion in like months.. haha. really do miss the days where we went through all sorts of tough training programmes together and still pulled through in the end.. haha anyway pictures!

2007-06-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

Its been a week since we came back from redang and i still miss the beach! =D haha.. had a great time there with friends and family and it was a fun time of fellowship too. I'm glad we made full use of our time there to enjoy and really relax after all our work and busy lifestyles in Singapore. Well.. i dun really know what to say coz there's just so much to talk about the trip and maybe pictures will tell a better story.. heehee.. will upload some maybe tonight! =D Anyway to jean, jo, jang, polar bear and shark, i just wanna say that u guys really made this trip a very memorable one for me, since its my first trip without my parents i must say that i played my heart out and every moment was a happy moment =D haha lets continue to train up to improve our volleyball skills so that we can have a rematch with our opponents next year! hoho =D

Friends for Eternity

2007-06-05T00:30:00.000+08:00

i am beat from all the packing! haha.. moving house is really not an easy feat i realised. Emerge conference just ended yesterday and i dun have the time to catch up on my sleep coz of work and all the packing.. lol. But emerge was a blast! =D Every session was a time of refreshing and moulding and i believe our church has moved up another level as a whole. For me, this year's emerge was not s much about the competitions or which cluster won.. i mean these are exciting but encountering God was the utmost important thing. Pastor's sermons were not only challenging but inspiring as well. Its true how one can go so far when he or she believes in the power of ONE =D
Our cell went out for supper after the last session last night and it really was a great time of fellowship. Mic, Sheila, Jean and Jo i love you girls! Its all of u who stand by me each time i am down and i really love and appreciate it =D Glad we had a great time of sharing yesterday and i know that we can do more for W345 and the church as long as we stay faithful and united.. hee. Though i got home at about 3 and slept at 4.. it was fruitful and what more can i say, i love you girls for being there always, i love all our pastors and leaders for sacrificing so much for us, i love City Harvest Church.

2007-05-25T09:51:00.001+08:00

hoho.. its nine plus in the morning and the first time in months i get to sleep in! haha.. work only starts at 12pm today so i guess i can slack around a little for now. Went swimming and night shopping with jang yesterday.. though we were a little too tired to have a full workout at the pool. haha. But anyway jang thanks so much for the slippers! =D Had dinner/ supper at some malay food place at arab street where we eat roti john and taohu goreng.. tasted quite good to me till i got home later that night and had a terrible tummy ache.. lol. hmm.. maybe it was something i ate earlier but anyway i still enjoyed myself so yay =D Anyway, emerge is in less than a week's time! woohoo! Going forth with a heart of expectancy and an attitude of gratitude for all that He has done in my life =D

2007-05-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

hello hello haha i have decided to be more diligent and to update my blog more often haha =D Had my braces removed today! kinda fortunate coz i only had to wear for a year heehee. My mouth feels so empty now lol. Work today was fun, not sure why but returning to subway has been great maybe coz the admin job was really too boring for me =X Oh yea.. was rushing down to my dentist after work today to collect my retainers and bumped into k luon on the way.. haha what a coincidence.. he was on the way home i think lol. Anyway i feel especially happy these days coz emerge is coming and i can't wait! hoho. I feel that God is really doing a great thing in our church and bringing us all up to another level.. cheers =D

2007-05-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

I think there's some big problem with me.. haha. Been feeling so tired these days! Maybe i just love to sleep thats all haha. Work was terribly boring today and i spent like an entire hour surfing the net when my boss was out =X Dun think i will ever go back to doing admin work again! But i'm glad its all over coz today was like my last day =D Life's been kinda routine these few days.. going to work.. packing, unpacking etc. The house is getting emptier as the days go by and i am starting to feel quite sad about moving. Like we've been staying in this current house for about ten years now and i will feel weird going home to another place in about 2 weeks time? Haha but nvm i guess it wud be a new experience and its true that change is the only constant in our lives =D At least there's something awesome to look forward to next week which is emerge! yay! Gonna start gearing myself up for a real move of God and i believe that this year's emerge is not only gonna be exciting but a life changing time as well =D hee.

2007-05-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for such a long time.. wahaha. I guess its just pure laziness.. lol. hmm.. this week hasn't been entirely fantastic coz of work. lol. i have grown to learn that office politics can really spoil one's mood to work. There's like so much tension in the office everyday! Thank God my contract only lasts for like a month and its gonna end in a week.. woohoo! =D anyway, my day today started horribly! lol. i was out at the bus stop as usual in the morning and the bus was exceptionally packed today so i had to wait for the people inside to move in before i could board.. then it happened that there was only like space for one more person on the bus and i was about to get on when this guy just barged ahead of me and took the place.. i was like ?!?!?! woot such ungentlemenly people really exist! yikes. ok then i got over it coz i wun let such things ruin my mood so i decided to take another route coz i was running late. Got onto another bus and whats worse was it got into a minor accident at the next stop. lol. then we were all held up coz the driver had to get off the bus to see how bad it was.. haha. what a way to start the day right.. but it was ok, i was only 5 minutes late anyway! =D guess it wasn't as bad as i thought.

2007-04-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Haha sorry have been kinda lazy to update these days.. lol. I must say i really feel quite miserable going to work everyday coz the office is just so boring. I don't really talk much there coz the adults there are not very friendly except maybe one or two. Working life just makes me miss the weekends so much where i can spend time with my family and the cell.. sigh. :( Guess that only prayer and God's strength can carry me through every day in the week without me having to feel so bored and drained. But i really thank God for sunday's service coz i believe that i got a fresh annointing from Him and that the church is really going up another level =D Talking about this makes me so much happier.. guess i shouldn't focus on work anymore.. i shall spend my free time in the office praying quietly or maybe even reading the Bible to make me feel better in that gloomy place. hee.

2007-04-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

Just came back from supper with jean, jo, lengkian, wayne and stanley.. and i smell like food! yikes.. haha =D we were suppose to meet at 11 but got there like only half an hour later coz we got lost! i guess i didn't check the directory properly after all.. sorry jj! =X And sorry for keeping u guys waiting! haha. Had my favourite dessert 'dao hui'.. haven eaten that in a long time.. remember i used to eat that like almost everyday in vj.. lol =D But according to jean daohui is tasteless.. i guess i just like plain tasting food =D Knocked off pretty early today and headed straight home.. i think my job is kinda slack compared to what the others are doing but sometimes i feel like i rather have more things to do then just laze around all the time =P Still looking for another admin job at the moment.. hope the companies start calling soon! =D currently downloading bleach episode 121.. zzz.. i am falling asleep.. haha=D

2007-04-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

Started on my new admin job today! Haha.. its kinda cool coz the hours are really flexible and i get to run every morning! Hee=D Ran to bedok jetty today with sze and we passed by some mediacorp people filming.. haha. Oh and jo, now i know how u feel.. sitting in front of the computer just doing data entry is really boring.. lol. i wished i had someone to talk to! The worst thing was the computer didn't have msn and even if it had i dun think they allow us to use it.. haha. but i did surf the net for a while.. =X But the people there are nice so i guess its not bad =D Knocked off quite early and dozed off immediately upon reaching home.. haha! i can't believe i only woke up at 8.30pm.. haha! U know that feeling when u wake up and its already dark.. yikes i hate that.. makes me feel like i wasted the day sleeping! haha.. must start to kick that habit of sleeping so much! =D